Stillness

 It's like holding one's breath 

With no plan in sight, to exhale

I step out of my body

For a little fresh air

But my nostrils cannot smell the fragrance.

Happiness is good

Even if you are not the happy one

I attempt a smile

My lips curve up, I flash my teeth 

But my eyes don't share the mood 

My body is limp in the water

I feel weightless, relaxed

I clock my workout, sip from my bottle

Time to go, I'm feeling light

But the water weighs me down, as I heave myself out

 My breath is short, sharp and laboured

Nothing moves around me

I shake the leg that fell asleep

And try to silence the ringing in my ears

But stillness continues to shake, uncontrollably.

I think I hear the birds chirping

There is urgency in their call

I instinctively reach out to help

They cannot see me, I'm invisible

But I can feel the wind on my face, I'm still alive, I think.